HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Last year was a rollercoaster! Full of ups and downs and everything in between... I went through a phase these past couple of weeks, just before the year ended, where I was only nagging, screaming and wondering why God had “forsaken” me! I exhibited all the traits of a “Drama Queen”. I was so wrapped up in what I wanted and in the fact that I started to believe that God had not done what He promised. All these self orchestrated noise was so loud that I failed to listen to that calming still voice deep within! Do we find that we sometimes allow our ever so long list of requests, expectations and “errands” becloud our love and desire for God?! I find that I am my happiest when things happen the way that I expect them to and the way I want them to. I become a totally different person, even a stranger to myself when I don’t see things happen my way. It is funny how we are so quick to raise “holy hands” and act righteous when everything listens to us and acts accordingly. But woe betides the people around us when we suddenly realise that life is not a bed of roses, neither is it milk or honey.
God allowed me to cry all I could, He allowed me to throw all the tantrums and He did what I hated the most! ... He kept quiet! Not a word, not even a scripture to encourage me and tend to my “wounds”. I was all alone, I stopped crying enough to see if He bothered and was probably speaking amidst my crying... NOTHING! Quiet as a grave yard and was scarily deafening. I tried to turn to everyone and anyone I could, to hear God speak through them, but He was not going to speak to me while I was in that mood.
I finally stopped acting like a child and decided to go back to Him... I remember that night like it was just a couple of hours ago, I went on my knees and asked Him to take me back, with all my flaws and ungratefulness... Still no word. Suddenly, I started to get words from my family and friends, telling me to remember where God brought me from and what He did for me in the past, knowing that the same God that did it then will do it again! I was reminded of how great my God is and how mighty He is! I was reminded of how much He loves me and will do what is best for me and not what I want. The word finally came... "REJOICE IN THE LORD ALWAYS, AGAIN I SAY REJOICE!" I got the word and ran away with it. I remembered how far He brought me and all the awesome things He did and is doing, even though I could not see them. I turned my drama to dramatic praise!! I looked for something, no matter how small, to thank Him and just lift His name! I made a decision to love and praise God regardless of what I went through, good or bad!
Guess what?? Just when I thought He was done with me, He started to speak to me again, even clearer than before!! He did what I expected and even more. My praise had broken through for me!
We sometimes go through very low times and seasons, where we feel like we are all alone, but regardless of your situation, whether things go your way or not, never for once forget the things He did for you in the past and rejoice because you know He is going to do it again!
Have a praise (full) and fulfilling new year!
Peace and Blessings
Be Love
